26 March 2009


Yesterday I had a meeting with HR, which confirmed what I already knew...since I haven't worked a year AND 1000 hours yet at my job, I have no job security with HMC. So when I go out on maternity leave on the 7th of April (or sooner) they can post my job. Will they? They probably will, since I am not willing to go back for more than 1 day per week and a weekend a month max.

I didn't expect to feel what I felt, however, upon hearing this official news. I felt slightly "punished" I guess. Like I was loosing my job on account of having a baby. I also felt all this, probably undue, pressure to go back to work right away. Let alone go back to work right away, to go back to work at all.

I have wrestled for a while about working, while being a mom. I have been convicted over and over about staying home with our son. I'm not saying this is how every woman, family or marriage should feel about this. To explain further I will direct your attention to GirlTalk blog, yet again! The Lord is so kind to provide encouragement during this time of decision making. In the land of Jersey there is not much encouragement, I have found, for mothers who want to stay at home full-time, let alone home school (we'll not get into that!).

So pray for us with this transition and pray that we would be seeking the Lord's wisdom in all things... "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him." (James 1:5)


Elizabeth said...

Your highest and greatest calling is to raise your child in the fear and admonition of the Lord. Through him God will grow His covenant, and you have an awesome opportunity to participate in extending His kingdom. Don't let anyone diminish the honor of being a full-time mom!!

Goodness I'm getting all emotional. This is an issue I, too, have been wrestling with as we just begin to think about starting a family.

Shana said...

Sorry to hear about your job, but don't let it discourage you from what you feel is right. God will provide for you.
So you're thinking about homeschooling? Interesting... :)

Rebecca said...

Thanks ladies (Liz we have this tendency of choking one another up!) Yeah, Shana, I have given great thought to home schooling...not a huge fan of the public school system...plus I have a bunch of great examples of what home schooling produces :-)

Natali Monnette said...

Hi Becca! Congrats on your new little boy. I'm a friend of Joel & Liz here in VA Beach, and just wanted to commend you for making the very brave choice (in our culture) to stay home with your kids. Our culture has such a contempt or disregard for stay-at-home moms and domesticity that it is such a testimony when Christian women make that choice joyfully. When I read about the Proverbs 31 woman, I'm impressed by how strong, wise, & productive she is! She isn't just sitting on her rump on the couch in sweats with bedraggled children running around.... Anyway, I wanted to encourage you in your decision! (I'm due with my first baby in a couple of weeks & will also be quitting the career world--with a right good will!).